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Sincerely Bernard Walker
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I have had over 157 ECT (Electroshock) treatments over the past four years. I feel like this many treatments along with all the medications were excessive and have ruined my life. The cost and time has been a tremendous stress on my entire family. I feel like my doctors excessive use of this treatment was not in my best interest. I feel I have suffered severely as a result. Mentally I have lost most all of my long term memories and have difficulties with any short term memory. Physically I suffer from severe headaches regularly, my hands shake badly and my legs hurt. I should clarify that I was diagnosed as bi-polar which I still take medications for.
My issue is not so much that I was initially treated with the ECT but that I was given so many treatments while still receiving so many medications. I think if all the records were checked, I was probably given more than 200 of these treatments all together. Everyone I have spoken with, as in other doctors and nurses, have said that they had never heard of anyone getting this many treatments. As I have researched on line I have found that I am a rare exception. Actually I haven’t found anyone who has had as many as I had. I also question why the treatments were not slowed down earlier to see if I was making progress as opposed to the three a week I was receiving for the longest time. Also while researching on line I found that I suffer from most all potential side effects that were listed. I insisted on quitting these treatments last June 2006.
I feel my doctor was careless, reckless and negligent in his excessive use of this ECT treatment on me. I question that his motives may have been monetary and self serving.
oh my god! I’m here for you. Praying for your recovery from your treatment. Nam myoho renge kyo. My head has been hurt badly but has given me determination to be there for others. Much love Jackie jackievans22@myway.com
Debbie,
I just want to let you know you are not alone. I am also a survivor of long-term ECT treatments. I thought that my 70+ ECT treatments over a 2 1/2 year period were extreme. However, that is a small number of treatments when compared to you. I too have suffered severe memory impairments: severe retrograde amnesia (most of the 30+ years of my life memories are gone) and my short-term memory and other cognitive functions have been significantly impaired. I am very dependent on my husband (I do not know what I would do without him) and family for my life history. Our memories are a critical part of who we are and our relationships with others. You are not alone.
Like you, it is not necessarily ECT in general that upsets me so much, but the number of treatments. I agreed to long-term treatments, because I was told my memories should come back 3-6 months after my last ECT treatment. I trusted my psychiatrist and ECT stabilized my moods, particularly my deadly mixed episodes (I also have Bipolar I). I too insisted on quitting my ECT treatments. There is very limited research and support for long-term/maintenance ECT treatments and particularly the long-term effects. When I discovered this I too insisted on quitting my ECT treatments. I have to say that from what you describe, your doctor’s use of ECT does appear “careless, reckless and negligent.” One has to wonder what his rational for this type of long-term intense use of ECT treatments are. I definitely would like to hear this. I continually question do they really believe “the benefits out way the costs?”
I am now coming to my 1 year anniversary since my last treatment and to terms with the fact that my memory improvements have reached a “plateau.” I wish I knew then what I know now about ECT. I am struggling with allot of anger, frustration, and loss. I can imagine that you may also be experiencing similar feelings. Again, you are not alone.
In my own search for information and guidelines in my own Recovery and Rehabilitation from ECT, I have discovered that there are basically none. However, there a some things that might be helpful; such as neuropsychological testing and cognitive rehabilitation. I am currently undergoing neuropsychological. Testing and hopefully this will help establish exactly what deficits are present and some areas that cognitive rehabilitation might be able to help me with. At least, they might be able to help me with developing some additional coping skills and techniques to help better compensate for these cognitive difficulties. I was also informed that insurance usually helps pay for some of the expenses. Have you considered anything like this? I have a lot of hope for you and others like us. You are not alone.
Sharing your story has helped me not feel so alone in the struggle and recovery from ECT. I feel that I and as I imagine other ECT survivors can connect to your pain. I often wish I could wave a magic wand and make this all go away. We may not be able to do this, but we can make things better by providing support and making changes happen. I am here and will do whatever I can to help you and another ECT consumer/survivors.
With Hope,
Danielle
Hi.
My name is Mindy. I suffer from bi-polar and lots of other associated mental illness. I had 12 sessions of ECT in 1999. My life as I knew it was over from that minute.
I recently had a neuropsych evaluation. It showed that my IQ dropped significantly. Also, I have such low executive functioning so I am unable to do most multi-step tasks. My scores are as low as 4%.
The doctor said, “I have good news and bad news. The good news is that no one can see the extent of your problems. The bad news is that no one can see your brain injury.” That is such a true statement!
I’ve been to a neurologist last week and ruled out things like Altzheimer’s or other dimentias. My psychiatrist NOW agrees that the ECT is the basis of the destruction of who I was. Everyone kept saying that my memory loss is not as bad as I felt it was.
I was a crisis psychologist until that date. I made split second decisions and juggled a dozen tasks at a time. Now I can’t even remember the phone number I just heard. My general knowledge fund is very high so my problems couldn’t believed.
I suffered for 7 years without anyone really understanding the depth of my brain damage. As silly it may be, it took until my sister mentioned that it could be the ECT. My doctor finally agreed. He said it seemed impossible to believe. He said that I was able to “fake” it for years.
I am putting together a few articles for my psychiatrist to understand better. If I could also find an article to explain the problems to family members is also needed.
Any suggestions? Thanks for your time.
Mindy (mindyc212@msn.com)
Hello! I wanted to leave my email address in case anyone had any suggestions, feedback, or questions for me. I really value this. Thank you!
Danielle
ladydepaul@verizon.net
I am just slack-jawed with non-comprehension to read that Debbie received 157-200 ECT treatments.
My first thought was “is she or her family doing anything about it?”
I am the Director of Litigation for the Citizens Commission on Human Rights International (CCHR). CCHR was established by the Church of Scientology in 1969 to investigate and expose psychiatric violations of human rights. I don’t suppose I need to convince anyone visiting this website that ECT is in and of itself a human rights violation.
I would be willing to assist any victims of ECT to find a competent attorney. Please contact me at swagner@cchr.org
Sincerely,
Steve Wagner
To all of you, Debbie, Jackie, Danielle, Mindy:
I feel extreme sorrow for what each of you have had heaped into your already struggling lives by irresponsible, self-serving practitioners. It is so exquisitely difficult, in the first place, to day in and day out try desperately to manage one’s life in the face of depression, in any of it’s categorized guizes.
To have the additional horror of dealing with the remnants of poorly administered ECT is unconscionable.
I am 60 years old; I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety since I was 8; and after 52 years of earnestly trying so many therapies, modalities, medications, no medications, study and research, it is sometimes very difficult to keep the faith. For me, even though intellectually it makes no sense, the hardest part is the inner shame I feel at not being able to “shake it off.” Within my family unit, even now in 2007, these tpes of problems either 1) really do not exist, excepting selfishness or sin, or 2) must be kept secret.
As a child I sought help from teachers or trusted “elders,” since I grew up in a small rural area where problems of the mind were relegated to the “city folk;” they either were too mundane to merit validity, or the knowledge base was missing.
I have been doing some research about ECT because of extreme discouragement at being my age and still struggling many times just to get through the day. Feeling genuine joy is something that only happens spontaneously with my sons, their wives, and my grandchildren; however, my country girl stock still holds to the belief that all will work out, in time. My reason for sharing all this is to in my very private way thank each of you for your courageous sharing; for your continually finding the spirit somehow to persevere. Your candid, albeit heart-breaking words have probably saved me from a fate worse than the one I continue trying to make some sense of.
And, thank you, also for the website. Your contribution is so important, and so appreciated. It’s wonderful we all have a place to go where people “know what we mean;” not to mention an unbiased forum of sharing real events. Also, thanks for managing the integrity of the website.
Christine
i recieved ect in 02.my memory is really bad & my iq went from 142 to 84 after only 12 trtmnts.have not been able to work or function properly since.nightmare!
I am Bi-polar, have severe depression, OCD and panic attacks. I am contemplating ECT since I am not responding to any medications and have a one year old to look after.
I feel very desperate..and just want the pain to stop. I don’t know what to do. Please help.
anyone tried modafinil? any good? cheers jamie
You people are sick! ECT causes brain damage you morons! And look at you talking about drugs like they are a treat! you should be ashamed of yourselvs! And Michelle, do NOT go through with ECT, it destroys your brain and has a risk of killing you, I know what you feel, I to have OCD, Depression, and panic attacks but I am in controll of it all because I know that you have no reason for being sad, I mean look at how lucky you are! You have freedom, you have people who love you, and you are surrounded by God’s love! You have a life don’t destroy it with a treatment that was created by a evil quack! You are better thain that, you are better thain the depression! Remember things that make you happy, and eventually you will no longer be depressed, I know because it worked for me and zi did not use ECT.
I am bi-polar and was breaking down (being hospitalised) once or twice a year when my son was born - sometimes more. I was so afraid of being forced ECT and still am. I begged a retiring psychiatrist to give me a drug that would actually work and he prescribed Sulpiride and it got me back to normal straight away and I havn’t been hospitalised since 1994 - 14 yrs. I think all the tablets called atypical anti-psycotics work in the same way. I am anti drugs myself but recognise that I was actually so ill that I eventually accepted I was ill and couldn’t manage without a bit of help. Having said this loads of bi-polar people manage on good diet and excercise regimes.I do have less energy than I used to have but am balanced slightly more down than up. But one of the most valuable things to help is having a truly understanding friend to protect and fight your corner if needed.
If you want to get in touch I am at www.myspace.com/dawncarol
Best wishes and I hope to live to see ECT banned world wide and a real cure found for the fear and danger part of Bi-polar and all mental illness.
I am a currently a student and I’m doing a speech on electroshock therapy. My aunt is currently undergoing ECT treatments and they have done wonders for her. Or so she thinks. I have continually reads forums and facts and stories of ECT patients and they all amaze me. I feel for all of you who have to undergo such abrasive treatments against your will. I hope to present the facts to my classmates and start showing people the truth about these aggressive treatments,good or bad.
Sincerely,
TMason